It was really getting me down. I switched to a few departments in store but still felt like I was wasting my life in a mundane job with little prospect. I know you can build your way up the career ladder in such places and some people do enjoy this line of work and similar career, but I knew that for me personally, it wouldn’t make me happy. At all. So I enrolled to uni and reduced my hours to 11 a week – working a monday evening and saturday evening and going to uni monday to friday on top. When I left uni I didn’t feel too panicked as I had this job, and although it wasn’t enough money etc etc I still had something to fall back on. I really wanted to go into teaching when I left uni and applied for the Design and Technology PGCE. I got on. But I couldn’t afford the fee’s to either live or study, so had to decline the offer. I felt gutted, but dusted myself off and decided to apply for teaching assistant jobs; you know, if I can get onto a course to BE a teacher, surely I could be a teaching assistant…. How wrong was I!? Every job I went for as a teaching assistant received on average 200 applicants! I applied for around 60 I’d imagine but every time I’d get to the 2nd interview stage and someone else more suitable/with more experience got it. My hope was fading fast. I got SO down about it all. Going on to a Masters or PGCE is a good way to get that extra step up on to the employment ladder but not all of use are able to afford it. Mega sad face. Feeling disheartened I then on a whim applied for a job with Student Finance, and got it straight away! It was going around the West Midlands on my own, doing talks to 6th form students about why University is such a good idea. I had my own little van and everything, only trouble was it lasted a mere 6 weeks and then I was back to square one with my 11hours a week at Tesco. I then decided that being a carer for troubled teenagers in a childrens home would be the next best thing. Extreme teaching I thought! So I applied for some homes and got a job in one. It was AWFUL. Really, if the first day of a new job goes slow you know you’re in for a rough ride. Unfortunately I had handed in my notice at Tesco so didn’t have that to fall back on this time. I worked for around 3 months doing 16-24 hours shifts at a time, it was the most mentally exhausting experience of my life. I could emphasise with the kids in my care but there’s only so many mornings you can start your day at work by having a cup of tea thrown at you and being called a ‘c*nt’. It drags you down beyond belief. I was losing hope once again and after many nights in tears I once again wondered what my life WAS. 28grand in debt (plus interest!!) for THIS!!?
So now, after 10yrs of life in and out of the ‘real world’ I’m now an Internal Communications Executive for a Digital design company. Although it is a part time role, it’s something I am endlessly enjoying, it’s for the type of people I want to work for, in a job I am good at. I know this little story went on a bit, but the general moral of this is; YOU WILL GET THAT JOB YOU’VE ALWAYS WANTED. You just need to carry on doing what you love. I’m not going to tell you to not get down about feeling like crap about the job you’re in (or maybe not in if you can’t find one) because I know how down you can feel. I know how much it makes you feel like a complete failure and how it effects every part of your life. But you just need to know that despite this shit spell there will be the perfect opportunity just for you out there. Try not to get jealous of others, this is another thing I did, I just got insanely jealous of people who seem to have their life sorted out! Maybe jealousy is a slightly good thing though, as it did make me more determined to get what I want. And in the end it kind of fell into my lap anyway! Another thing you have to remember nowadays is that everyone seems to have a degree, the job market is just so competitive, try not to be too hung up on rejection, if a company doesn’t want you to work for them then why do you want to work for that company?! It’s not a case of you’re not good enough for them, they’re just not good enough for you, because you’re gonna be pretty awesome anyway aren’t you?
As you have read, my job was pretty much found through Twitter, and I think this is a great place to sell YOURSELF directly to your potential employer. It shows your unique tone of voice, it’s your chance to converse with them and make idle chit chat about mutual interests and get your name on their radar. As Twitter is a bit more public, if you’re a creative person it’s your chance to directly show people you admire your work, just @ them some of your stuff, you might be shy but it will do no harm and it’s… THE INTERNET no one needs to be shy on there! I do hope this blog post gives some people not knowing about their future a little bit of reassurance. And if you want to ask me anything else then please do! I’m always happy to help. But don’t be disillusioned by my wonderfulness, I don’t actually know everything like I appear to make out I do! Haha. Oh and if you are one of the incredibly lucky ones who have got their post grad life sorted – CONGRATULATIONS, I hope you enjoy it as there is an abundance of people who would love to be in your shoes right now. I should also add that I know some very successful people that didn’t go to university at all, it’s not all about further education, if you can get yourself a great job straight after school jump at the chance, as you can go to university any time in your life, there’s no rush. Take every opportunity you can!
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